I can't function: But It IS the Same

» vivavoce - But It IS the Same

The effects you and all of us are feeling are exactly the same as the abused in a "domestic violence" situation.

That numbness, that inertia, that blindness to everything around you -- those are the same effects as domestic violence. They prevent you from being able to function unless there is an overwhelming, conscious effort to overcome it.

Only a sense of duty and obligation to some small thing -- a pet, a cause, a child, a bill that needs to be paid -- is what keeps you moving and feeling some purposefulness of any kind and a reason to keep striving. And the other thing that keeps you going is knowing that at any moment, your aggressor may appear again and you MUST be ready to avert their moves or allay them, to defend yourself when the blows come, to survive so that you can escape, and so that you can survive to rebuild your life and the beautiful world that used to be yours.

Rest now, Laura. We can wait. Come back strong and dauntless and ready.

We understand.

-- posted by vivavoce