Education Matters: Denial in Dissociation: Denial

» diana_rainbow - Denial

I have for many years denied that I was 'multiple'. Once, when about 30 parts came out in rapid sucession with me there, at a later session the body went into shaking convulsions. It was as if I had failed. Now I am looking at shell ( I call it shatter) programming. There are many behind me and 'I' was only ever used as a voicebox so the d.i.d. would go undetected. It is very likely that that was my job long ago to maintain the appearance of one. I have no real existence except them - and some co-existences perhaps, but without any sense of connection. Mr. Nobody, Cocoon, the presenter, the system facilitator etc. etc. Denial has driven one of my therapists almost crazy, but shell programming would have been to hard to accept. Thus denial has served its purpose but is increasingly being broken down
Respectfully,

Shattered but not broken

-- posted by diana_rainbow