Easter in the Cult: anyone know?

» NightWinds - anyone know?

I was sexually abused by a cousins uncle(supposely a mason)along with my brother and other cousins. I do not remember all of it..my brother whom I had not had contact with told me that we were forced into something and that i was drugged and woke up and walked in on something...I remember being drugged, or feeling as if i were and being in a strange house...my mom and sister both got very angry when i questioned that time, i had no idea why, now i know why they got so hostile with me. Anyhow he filled me in and told me just bout everything. Things I suspected, he just came out and told me...I was rather astonshied as we never talked nor knew what the other knew, so our stories matched up perfectly. He use to tell tales that seemed crazy...and for a long time, I thought he was, now i see he isn't. He has tried to kill himself several times and is strangely still wantting to be close to my family, even after all he knows. Anyhow, I need to know what kind of drugs they use, what was possibly used on me here...and if march 22 1963 was near or close to easter back then. I was three when I was told that I took a overdose of adult apsirins and I almost died too according to the report i later got from the hospital, like decades later. I was told that I chewed the entire brand new bottle, now remeber that are bitter and burn your mouth and I was three years old...I do have a slight memory of my mom trying to posion me with household poisons...it seemed more real than a dream and she is a very violent person as she has held a gun to a sibling of mine and threated to kill her...so I do believe now she is capable...What I can't seem to figure out is why try to kill me? Was I remembering things and talking? I did walk in on things going on when i was just a very young girl...my brother said that apparently they did not drug me enough. My brother on the other hand, is violent too has a problem with authority and wanting to kill people who he watches...who in turn do not like the fact that he is watching them...and i mean who will be believed here? I could go on, but I think i better not reveal much else, as i am sure preps read these boards and start trouble with people...so I will just end this, with a sincere desire to ask for helop, to be listened to, without judgement or riducle, please. My brother also told me that he was a "golden egg" whatever tat means, i wish someone would tell me...he was appraoched to join some organization, can't remember the name. I was in the rainbow girls but to be honest all i remember were boring meetings and i did not stay as wearing white dresses at age 15 was not really the thing to do...My brother btw was made to kill animals to drown them and then made to take money from our grandparents...he got so angry and upset when he told me this...it broke my heart to peices. Now i wonder why my grandparents would do such a horrible thing to him. I do know that side of the family is majorly messed up, alcohol and violence was the norm. Anyone who can help me, please do...I only allow my mom email at present, as this new info does scare me, I do fear her more than ever now...so please someone help me. Thanks. I will come back here and look to see if anyone responded this time.

-- posted by NightWinds