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Top 10. Feb 6, 2006 6:10 AM

» NightWinds - Re: Re: I also seem to handle a great deal of stress rather easi

In response to Re: I also seem to handle a great deal of stress rather easily. posted by hom123:

Wow...I just found this place again and appreicate the responses too. I hope to bookmark this so I can return again...anyhow here...I have a question here and would like to know if others had experienced this or not. Sometimes at night, rarely but now and then. Like the other night, I was on a site for surivors and was reading some stories and then went to bed. I felt anxious and terrified and yet I had no idea of what...assumed it was from what I had just read maybe here. Anyhow, as I laid down to sleep, my thoughts were racing and I oddly started to feel wide awake again, I just could not stop thinking of things, not even sure what they were bout now...but I then heard a fizzle or a snap in my head and my entire head jerked and it felt as if it were going to snap off...it totally scared me to death. Anyhow, afterwards I could not remember a single thought prior to this. It happens maybe two to three times a year and happens the same way every single time...and aftewards I feel no discomfort at all...I usually just fall to sleep then. Has anyone else experienced this? Should I be concerned? Is this abuse related or perhaps a medical problem? It only has happened a few times a year. I otherwise healthy except for asthma, allergies, hypothryodism, ptsd, and diabeties. And fibro and I have it all under control...and I do not think these condition pertain to my brain anyhow here. Any help is greatly apprecited! Again, thanks for the support and your input, as it helps to see I am not alone here! Sorry to hear of your experiences as well. Take Care.

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Top 11. Feb 6, 2006 6:15 AM

» NightWinds - hom

Basically it is pain in hands around the wrists but also affects my entire body. I am wondering if Fibro is really just results from abuse more than anything else here. My father has it and I heard it is inherited. So maybe there is a link here between diseases and abuse?

-- posted by NightWinds

Top 12. Feb 6, 2006 6:16 AM

» NightWinds - Re: Re: I also seem to handle a great deal of stress rather easi

In response to Re: I also seem to handle a great deal of stress rather easily. posted by IsraelDan:

Thanks Dan, your posts are very interesting and informative to me, may GOD bless you as well smile

-- posted by NightWinds

Top 13. Feb 6, 2006 6:22 AM

» NightWinds - Pr...

Thank you and I wish the same to you as well. I had heard bout these experiments and others that are well documented too. I need to do more research on this as well here.

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Top 14. Feb 6, 2006 6:39 AM

» NightWinds - Pr and Trouble

Thanks for your help as well and sorry to hear you both also struggle with this as well. I always suspected my church but could not really put my finger on it. My brother came out to us and told us that our pastor( a lutheran one) had tried to get him intoxicated and then hit on him, and it seems this man has done this to many including minors in a group home and of course the church stood by him and everyone knew and no one cared. In fact, when we left the church, we were poo pooed and told that my brother was crazy, since he was in a military accident and almost died, he was labeled crazy and he has problems too. But this is not one of those cause I remember some things that he did, things that made no sense to me, and he pieced together perfectly for me and helped me remember some more. I always suspected someone had drugged me as a young girl. I can remember being in a room with some relatives, cousins and be scared, alone and not knowing how I got there. It was hot, and I couldn't move, but I very much wanted to move, there was a fan blowing around hot air and I just remember being in a bed, in a light nightgown with my other cousins who were bout the same age as me. We all fit so I am thinking we had to be really young. When I had brought this up to my mom, not knowing what my brother told me later on, she got violently angry with me and told me that house never existed and that the man who owned it, couldn't have. But I could tell she was upset and nervous, this was over the phone and then I asked my sister who then told me, yes! you remember that?! I said nothing, cause I was sooo shocked she would even say that to me, as she is in compete denial and worships my parents. Anyhow the next day, I brought it back up to her, my sister and she competely denied the whole entire conversation! It was there that I suspected I was on to something bad here. Many years later, me and my brother started talking...I just mentioned a certain person and his house and he then told me everything, not into detail cause he started getting upset and then dangerously violent, I was scared, but I listened cause I knew deep down this was the truth, I had suspected for sooo long. Anyhow, it was not too long after that, that he was committed again to the va for attempted suicide. I never called him after that, he told me he was going to kill people and me too, and oddly got upset with me as well here. I think cause he still craves the attention from my parents, that he was going to them and talking and telling me we need to forgive them and that everyone wants me to let it go...I can't understand him, how he can have all this knowledge, tell me bout it and then go to their home when they do allow him to visit for holidays and then make me out to be the unforgiving one, just makes no sense to me. Anyhow, I have no famliy anymore, but thankfullly I have my own today, a happy one and far far away from them all. I still love them and care, but I am too scared to be near them. I still talk to my mom via email..and she has pobox but that is all I can ever do, I suspected she tried to kill me a few times and she is not very stable. On the outside she is kind at times and very helpful to others and goes to church and etc...and even writes me kind words at times when I am down, but she changes on me, and she has stabbed me in the back, emotionally she and I can't ever really connect, cause she is jealous of me and is immature for the most part. I still have a hard time getting along and relating to people today cause I never really learned to get along with people. And this I blame her for, and others too, cause I can't trust people at all and they can sense it and then I guess it scares them maybe?

-- posted by NightWinds

Top 15. Feb 6, 2006 6:53 AM

» NightWinds - Re: Re: I also seem to handle a great deal of stress rather easi

In response to Re: I also seem to handle a great deal of stress rather easily. posted by prhiannon:

I often wonder if the late Jim Morrison was experimented on, he was very intelligent, and I believe his famliy was military...he seemed to have a profound affect on soceity and people. He seemed to be very troubled too. I know drugs and alcohol are often used by many to cope, sadly enough. I also wonder if others like him, who are in the public view were as well. I heard that another guy, I think from the "Who" name escapes me here now, that he also was very curious bout his fate as a child and then later was accused of some sinister things, cause he was digging too much maybe? I always wonder...cause you have to remember that these people can affect our society to a large degree here..I even heard the other day that Lennon was accused of being a agent for the communists, that his songs were suppose to start a uprising of some sort and that maybe it was intentional here? Love to know what you all think of that too...gotta go here...take care.

-- posted by NightWinds

Top 16. Feb 7, 2006 8:22 PM

» IsraelDan - Re: Pr and Trouble

In response to Pr and Trouble posted by NightWinds:

It's good to see you back on the forum. I'll try my best to give you some answers.

The "fizzle and snap" that you hear definitely could be related to the programming, perhaps one that used LSD. A good friend of mine had heard various sounds such as what you describe, as well as morse code and ticking sounds. She had an internal clock that was inside of her. God rest her soul; she has since been killed as an alter by flood suicide programming. If you have a strong will to live, you can overcome that programming. Part of the problem was that she couldn't execute my technique-- it might have saved her. I believe that flood programming has claimed the life of Svali as well. When this happens, a cult-loyal alter takes over; the world cannot tell the difference between the different alters. Friends will notice little changes, however. Anyway, the sounds you hear could be related to orgone(scalar wave) weapons which affect the emotional state of a person who is a target. The Illuminati is quite advanced in this area.

Fibro could be caused by the abuse. The cult does "brain stem scarring" which affects the nervous system in a detrimental manner. Many diseases and behavior thought to be inherited are actually caused by cult abuse. Cancer is one condition that abuse makes worse, and sometimes causes. The emotions held in check overstimulate the cells, and causes rapid cell reproduction in the form of tumors.

I'm sorry to hear about your experiences with the church. If you've read my testimony, you'll know that churches across the board have been infiltrated by the Illuminati and Los Alumbrados. It's important to distinguish between these corrupt churches, and the remnant who have remained pure to Christ's principles. This is harder to find these days, as the cults have poisoned nearly every church in existence with their hideous plan. The corruption does not make the Bible false, however. Jesus will separate the wheat from the chaff when He comes back soon.

It's regrettable to hear about your family situation. What's crucial is to differentiate between your family's front alters, and their cult alters. The front alters are in extreme denial, and parents will feel extremely threatened by accusations of cult abuse, and will try their best to deflect the pain of the abuse back onto you. My parents were well-meaning, committed Christians who remained in denial til the end. They eventually realized that one of my alters(Michael) was the great pianist Anthony de Mare(I showed them a picture of an album cover on Amazon.com), and that was enough to trigger flood suicide programming in them. They then knew that a double-life existence occurred in our family. Sometimes the truth is too much to bear, so have mercy on your parents. I'm sorry to hear about your brother; I was also labeled "crazy" by a psychiatrist that my cult parents sent me to. The problem is that very few mainstream psychiatrists and psychologists are familiar with programming phenomena-- a good portion of them have programming themselves(which is the case with my shrink). It sounds to me like the drugs have caused your brother to recant his earlier perceptions. God forbid that happens with me. We all need prayer. It sounds like your sister had her memory erased of that conversation and experience. The cult is always "erasing" memory in their slaves(I had a short-lived marriage that was erased-- both the dating and the wedding and honeymoon were completely gone until I pieced it together later). Not getting along with people is typical of many Illuminati slaves, as the cult wants to isolate the victim from anybody but the "trusted family". They warp the emotions so that many insecurities' main roots remain hidden from consciousness. Learning to trust again is a slow process, I know. It's fortunate that you have your own home, and that you can separate from these negative influences. I have been pushed into a situation by the cult which has caused me to move back in with my parents, and I owe a huge financial debt to them. The Illuminati usually get their way in the end. Just hang in there with your family; it could be worse.

Jim Morrison was most definitely a multiple. All personalities that have been thrust into the mainstream spotlight are connected to the cults, whether consciously or not. Morrison is an Illuminati name, and so is Townsend(the Who). John Lennon and the rest of the Beatles were a product of the Tavistock Institute, which is an Illuminati organization which has literally shaped our culture, right down to slang and catchphrases. The counter-culture of the 60's was carefully created by Tavistock and the rest of the cult.

Just keep fighting, and know that I'm praying for you. God bless you, too.

- Dave
Dan of Israel

-- posted by IsraelDan

Top 17. Feb 11, 2006 6:25 PM

» NightWinds - Re: Pr and Trouble

In response to Re: Pr and Trouble posted by IsraelDan:

Thank you for your response...I am sure it is not easy to talk bout this and I have to admit, there are times when I just shut down and try not to go there. I have to really wonder what is going on, as I know a few others who also know of this, some cause of direct involvement and some just seem to be very well informed here.

It is alot to digest at times and I am not so sure I will ever be at a place where I can even fully believe this, however, from my research and that of others, and coming to the same conclusions has rather preplexed me into seeing something, I wish I didn't and not really knowing what to do here. Cancer runs in my family, along strokes, and diabeties and many other conditions as well.

I had heard of Nanograms that can be used and put into peoples bodies that can actually cause Cancer and its being developed at Carnegie Mellon University by some researchers and prolly others places as well, as a new concept, but I suspect its not so new and maybe its used more often for dark reasons, who knows? I could be so far off base here, and then again, I could not be too.

I never was one to believe anything that I heard and only half of what I see...I am the skeptic through and through but my findings and conversations with others and those who were abused right along with me, keep finding out things and the stories just seem to keep having this recurrent theme and suspisions.

Of course, I can't talk to most people bout this, cause most are igonorant or parrot what they been conditioned to say by whomever, cause they don't want to be seen as a fool or niaeve here. I do understand that to some degree, cause for a long time, I was of that mind set, till things happened to me and I stumbled across some things. I do have a strong will to live and I am also a Christian and I do believe that it is only by GODs grace that I am alive and ok...and it is by his will that I die when I do as well.

So I am not worried here, I know GOD is in control of things and all events and that he will take care of me, no matter what. Thanks Dan, I appreciate you being on here, being so candid and taking the time to respond to me and give advice...its good to know that others care and can relate, it helps too smile

Blessings to you,
NWS

-- posted by NightWinds

Top 18. Feb 11, 2006 6:30 PM

» NightWinds - Re: abuse in childhood

In response to Re: abuse in childhood posted by hom123:

I know two people who changed their last names and I do not think its very hard to do, I would search goggle on the net, how to change your last name or call your nearest SS office. I thought of doing that myself...but I keep caving in and giving my mom my latest email addys, cause I miss her sometimes..she is the only one who cares enough to even have contact and she can be nice at times, but trust her, never, never never! I just write now and then...and I am sure she will show her true self soon again too, I know, its foolish of me, I know. Good luck to you.

-- posted by NightWinds