Finding A Safe House

» Debbeedo - Unfortunately, You are correct

I have recently tried to get away, run and hide.

There was no where to go
No one to help
So I stay and continue therapy in an effort to stop the abuse.

I still get called back and brought back and abducted

I hope that if you could find help that you will share it with me

I would like to email you, but don't know how to do it safely and you are probably swamp any way.

Another question I had was what are the physical longterm effects of torture on the body and mind. Are there any effects that a doctor could find,for example I have terrible Arthritis and I am too young for this, could this be from the shock, or other stuff? JUST WRITING THAT WORD FREAKS ME!

Debbeedo

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» Jeshurun - Is There no Balm in Gilead?

Hello Debbeedo and all of you! I am 24 years old and have lived in a legacy of ritual abuse all my life. Since I began having panic attacks, I deperately sought God for the cause of the panic and the other things going wrong. It wasn't till late last year that I finally believed what He was telling me; that my parents had gained mind control over me and my siblings (through ritual abuse). As I stand, I'm almost housebound- due to panic attacks- and depend completely on my parents (which is how they would have it). Like you, Debbeedo, I've tried to run. I moved countless times only to have doors close and have to return to my parents. They'd sometimes kick me out (for not "submitting" to their wishes), then take me back in when I got desperate. (I was almost kidnapped once I recall, and I've almost died many times.) As it stands, my parents don't know that I know about the ritual abuse and all that, because they still enforce their control very underhandedly. Two questions: Is there no balm in Gilead? The healing and help... Christians seem to regard lending a hand as taboo. Where can I find a safehouse? I feel so trapped. Only my parents are willing to help me (it seems), but they're the ones who use and control and make me beg and fall at their feet before they help. My parents try to make me feel I'm deceived by satan, but I do need a safehouse; I just can't keep surviving when my heart keeps falling apart and rebuilding itself; when I feel I've died over 13 times and have been forcibly resucitated. (Debbeedo, I get called back too whenever I go away from the group. They'll use a host of things, especially saying that my siblings, who I really love, miss me terribly.) My siblings are in the same horrid situation, but they're unaware of this stuff, and when I tell them, my parents make them report to them. Anyway, I hope to find help soon. It's been 6 long years of searching...

In Him,
Jeshurun

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