Learning to Get Along: Getting A Glimmer

» Jo Murphy - Getting A Glimmer

I should have guessed you were a relief teacher. It just seems that people from the outside of schools can see the forest for the trees. Possibly because they are not a tree?
I have gleaned a better understanding of (my self as a )teachers over the last few years.
They really do become overwhelmed by the violence of it all.
I've gleaned a better understanding of the students. They too become overwhelmed by it all?
Principles well, I suppose not everyone is born with a vision. Not everyone who has a vision would go for the carrot held out to them. (In Aussie anyway) All the money in the world wouldn't get me to take that on.
From the outside we say take the kids on and confront, explain, critique and help to solve. From the inside they say with what energy?
If a teacher is successful they enter a world of politics not meant to support and sustain them?
I see the world differently now. I see the ones who didn't make it. They are in the detoxs, the jails, the institutions.
I see the ones who did make it who possibly should be the ones in the ...? We shouldn't go there?
It is sad?
No.... it is a challenge.
Finally after much, much pain and hardship I found out that the only thing I can change is my self. And slowly that is happening. Slowly the environment in which I thrive is changing with me too. But I am a lot of that time working voluntarily in a rehab!
Why? Because the people in it are there to change! They hit rock bottom. They have to change if they are to survive.
I believe our schools. (In Australia) have begun the process of hitting rock bottom in stages across the country. Follow the leader. On the road down. 'Running helter, skelter to destruction...addicted to this...addicted to that...busy,busy,busy..addicted to perfection, running in full flight from reality' exaggerated I think not. Disguised. thinly perhaps.
It seems to be the characteristic of the human race..to have to let it hurt sufficiently before they (we) will put the effort into change.
So for my part I just go around the schools. I don't talk that much I just focus...stay calm...and make sure I am never triggered and never react. I model as best I can and real desire for peace.
Inner child work has helped me to understand where the children are coming from and where they are trying to go to. I leave it at that.
Nothing changes ...but I am.

Fun?
Maybe.
Painful ...definitely.
Important...extremely.
Urgent...exceptionally.
Jo
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-- posted by Jo Murphy