going thru the same thing...

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well, we seem to be going through just about the same thing... i met my boyfriend via internet as well, he was a member of this japanese anime message board that i had recently joined. and well, i found a link to access their IRC chatroom, went on, met everyone had a great time. i went on there just about everyday, those people became like a family to me. one day, i had mentioned that i was going to start attending culinary school, and i get a private message from Xel, which was his screen name. he tells me that he too is attending culinary school, and from there we became really good friends, talking everyday. our feelings for eachother grew, and i decided the next time i spoke to him, i'd tell him how i felt. when i came into the room he instantly PM's me with 'hey sexy' like he always did. i was very nervous, i didnt know if he felt the same, or what was going to happen, and like always my fear got the best of me, and i didnt tell him. days passes, and i still couldnt work up the courage to tell him...then about a week and a half later, i came into the room, and read the topic like always, what i read almost brought tears to my eyes...the topic was set by him and it read "for star: out of all the stars in the sky, i love you the best" and almost as fast as i had read the topic, he PM's me with "its true" and quickly i responded with "i love you too, i've been trying for days now to tell you, but could never work up the courage" and well, from there, we got so much closer, he's become not only my boyfriend, but my bestfriend. i tell him everything and he tells me everything...but see, heres the down part, he lives in canada, and i live in florida...very far apart...i really want to go to canada in december, during the 2 weeks i have off from school...but i dont know if i'll have enough money by then, im 19 a college student, still looking for a job that will accept the amount of hours i can work (which isnt alot) so things dont look so good right now...he makes me so happy...i've never loved someone the way i love him...i cry myself to sleep most nights...i wish he was with me, i go to sleep wishing he was there, and i wake up everymorning hoping he'll be there, at my side but he never is...its hard, but, i know we can make it through this. i know we can make it through any obstacle plaed in fromt of us, and each one thrown at us, will only make us stronger, and i know, that when we finally are together, all of the hardships will have been worth it...well...im sorry this was so long...i just had to say it all...and theres more i could say, but i'll just leave that for another time, or another place i guess...oh, and good luck to you and jean_mark, i hope everything goes good ^_^

-- posted by Star537

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