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sweetcrazygemini
- Sad but trying again
In response to
Sad but trying again posted by
isolated1:
I know how you feel about the lonliness. Bad relationship with family. In love with someone for 8 years that is too scared to commit. Seems I do things now and then that scare this person away. I've been dreaming of suicide on and off my entire miserable life. I've just been too scared of failing at it. I would hate to endure what you are enduring from anyone, or worse yet just make my health bad enough to be miserable but not bad enough to die. A lot of poison/suffocation methods can just mess you up if it doesnt kill you. So I'm stilllooking for that magic pill that just lets you drift off to nothingness forever, but I know none exists so I will have to do it the hard way eventually......