Suicide methods
- Firmhand68
- Mortricia
- Mortricia
- jacksally88
- last_moment
- sweetcrazygemini
- gochase
- queen69
- emptiness84
- emptiness84
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» Firmhand68 - Lost....
In response to Lost.... posted by waiting4:Are you suffering from cancer or depression? You respond as though you have been emotionally crippled for a very long time.
I understand what it is like from my perspective, but (also from my perspective) these periods of depression are not always with me.
You may be different than me, too. I recognize that.
What I don’t catch clearly is that I don’t understand the last quip. I have been sincere in everything I have added on each of the series of 101 discussion groups I’ve ever been apart of.
After losing my sister many things were reprioritized. Some ceased to have any relevance at all. This, (and family, or the extended family I enjoy in this community) are what matter. Other, previous superficial discussions have become just that. Something I no longer have interest in.
I once did, for a variety of reasons. Now, for the main reason that I have seen the “what if” answered (my Sister’s suicide) I have lost many competing desires.
Actually, this experience that I am revisiting for /with you is somewhat Orwellian…”All competing passions we will destroy.” Once you’ve buried a family member through suicide it changes, literally everything.
Be cautious just what relevance you ascribe to something I wrote on a site a year or two ago. Yes, I was sincere (and am probably still connected, to a degree, to what I wrote) but contemporary discussions or perspectives lose much of their gravity when compared to the permanence of death. Especially when it mangles so many so severely.
I suspect you’ve been in the care of counselors or sociologists or psychologists and no substantial headway has been made against your depression for a decade and a half, or am I jumping to a conclusion?
You spoke too succinctly. It is difficult for me to respond precisely. I will, if this is your desire.
And I believe (unless you’re addressing something very much different than I expect) that you are incorrect in accusing me of either insincerity or falsehood. Again, I have been sincere and very upfront about many things. Still (and to a point) this depression site was not by any means the first discussion group I was a part of. It did end up being the only one I have stayed with.
Sincerely,
Paul
-- posted by Firmhand68
» Mortricia - Re: Re: suicide methods
In response to Re: Re: suicide methods posted by dinkidi:I concur, those who found quick and easy are dead, I can't bare to slit my wrists or desicrate my body in a way that would leave scares, becuase what if I don't succeed in a cerain way, then there I am left with scares or in a ecoma, or more screwed up when I started, I have no signs of suicide, no one would ever know but in my mind they are there, if I could in this frame of mind that I am in find the way to quickly and with no pain I would.
-- posted by Mortricia
» Mortricia - Sad but trying again
In response to Sad but trying again posted by mer84:So here I am in Orlando Florida on a vacation for my "honey" and I to get closer after 6 years and yes, I am a fucking military wife!!!! He changed completely! I live with his anger and temper every day, some dY HE IS GOING TO COME home and find me dead! Beautiful still and dead! I am sitting here in our time share left on my own, left stranded by him with no keys t a car no money, nothing, he constantly has to remind me fo the nothing I am with out him! I want God to tkae me away from this miserable life I am at, at 25, why, I thought I was doing everything right unitl I met him- Just minutes ago I ran through the 1600 ft room searching for something, the only thing here that I have access to is a butchers knife, lovely, at least the sight of blood aroung my body in white sheets and me tan in his favorite black launduray should be a site for him to remember, I can picture my self falling on the butchers knife on my bed standing straight up, then deing slowing for 15-20 mins. I don't know how long it would take for me to bleed to death-
-- posted by Mortricia
» jacksally88 - an easy way out
I have read this entire thread. I looked up "painless suicide methods" on Yahoo's search engine, and it lead me to this site...I clicked on #4. It brought up the post by Firmhand68, dated December 31st, 2005. I read it, and immediatley felt like I'm not going to commit suicide....at least not tonight.I continued to read all of the posts, and then joined this site, and read some more. I will now come here when I feel suicidal, and maybe even read his post everytime. It helped me. Thank You!
FOR ALL OF YOU WANTING AN EASY WAY TO COMMIT SUICIDE......There is one. I have done it on accident twice, and theres no pain involved. I used to be a Heroin addict. I overdosed twice, and before hand was in heaven. Please feel free to contact me ; I'm on Yahoo Instant Messenger at jacksally88, and the same email..jacksally88@yahoo.com
I have been dealing with severe depression since I was 8 yrs. old. I'm 27 now. I also have anxiety and agoraphobia, which makes me not want to leave my apartment. This makes my depression worse.
My Heroin addiction started when I was 19, and lasted for a bit over a year, then I went to a Methadone clinic to come off the Heroin. I was on Methadone for 3 years, it was even harder to come off of. But I did it for my new girlfriend. Over a year ago I got into a car accident, and was hurt pretty bad. I had to take painkillers again, which lead me straight into rehab. I cleaned up for awhile, but my pain remained. I can't work because of it, I couldn't really do anything. So I got on painkillers again. I'm currently on Methadone, how ironic! I abuse my script all the time.
Being high is the only thing that makes me happy, or even "normal". But, it also makes me suicidal. I have no life. I sit in my apartment everyday doing nothing. I don't care about myself enough to do anything to help myself. My girlfriend feeds me every day, or else I wouldn't eat. We get high twice a week, and this is the only time I can do anything for myself....even shower.
-- posted by jacksally88
» last_moment - suicide methods
Ok frist off you sound just like me. Look I was the same way, well I kinda still am. Your ment to be here. And think of it this way every time you wanna die more. The more your propose in life is pissing the enemy off. I know right now you prob. don't wanna have anything to do with God but he's looking out for you. Prove to him your strong enough to make it. And if you ever need anything let me know anytime...e-mail me lp_rocker4life@yahoo.com-- posted by last_moment
» sweetcrazygemini - Sad but trying again
In response to Sad but trying again posted by isolated1:I know how you feel about the lonliness. Bad relationship with family. In love with someone for 8 years that is too scared to commit. Seems I do things now and then that scare this person away. I've been dreaming of suicide on and off my entire miserable life. I've just been too scared of failing at it. I would hate to endure what you are enduring from anyone, or worse yet just make my health bad enough to be miserable but not bad enough to die. A lot of poison/suffocation methods can just mess you up if it doesnt kill you. So I'm stilllooking for that magic pill that just lets you drift off to nothingness forever, but I know none exists so I will have to do it the hard way eventually......
-- posted by sweetcrazygemini
» gochase - one more thing...
This idea that suicide is the ultimate and only solution is a terrible misconception. We're so blessed to even have the ability to make choices in our lives, but why resort to suicide. Out of the thousands of ways we can alter our lives, whether we believe they're boring, unbearable, loveless, there are too many other paths to go down before anyone has to go down that route.BEING DEAD, means no more choices to make. How can we deprive ourselves of this? I don't believe anyone can truly believe that is what will set you free. If you're at the end of the rope and that seems to be an only option. Do something so outlandish and so out of the ordinary like going to the other side of the world and actually going live with people who HAVE NOTHING and FIGHT to live. A new environment can always change your state of mind. NOTHING is the be all, and end all.
-- posted by gochase
» emptiness84 - Considering Suicide
Hi all. After 4 years and 5 months of going out with a girl we end up breaking up and I feel all torn up inside. It seems like everything reminds me of her. She is my first girlfriend and we have so many memories together. This breakup almost happened recently and i guess we never fixed the problems. We gave it another try but i guess things didnt work out. Now i feel like i wasted the past four and a half years of my life and am really depressed. I know that i still love her but relationships are a two person thing. I keep wondering if suicide is going to end it all and make things better? I know that it might seem selfish but i dont want to live with this emptiness in my heart. Please help. I would appreciate any e-mails (www.l0shujai@yahoo.com) or posts concerning this problem. Thanks-- posted by emptiness84
» emptiness84 - add on to previous post
I forgot to previously mention that the way i would want to commit suicide would be to have an induced heart attack or by taking pills to end it all. As long as it can look natural, doesnt cause pain, and is 100% effective i will be open to suggestions.-- posted by emptiness84
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