Suicidal?
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- Angelkitty
- crzylolly
- mel15
- Helena14
- annie73
- AnnWachel
- AnnWachel
- jessycah
- ready911
- jacksally88
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» Angelkitty - Re: Re: A Friend
Dear Rawn, I am sorry that you feel so bad about your life. I know sometimes(more for some then others) life can seem very unbearable
You feel like nobody understands you, and those who say they do understand, can't help you. It is a neverending struggle to feel accepted, loved, appreciated, wanted, and the worst of it all is that the more you feel bad about yourself- the more you feel rejected by others. Trust me you are not alone. And you would really be surprised to know just how many people feel this way. People who may even seem to have a very perfect, together kinda life, may be feeling just like you. The thing is, how you see yourself, is not reality. Try seeing your life in a more possitive point even if you don't actual believe in it. If you try this technique whenever you feel like giving up on everything, you just might start seeing your life for what it really is- a blessing 
Have Siblings, or parents? Have any children? A husband or boyfriend? A close friend? Or even a pet that thinks the world of you? Well if you have any of these things,which I am sure you do, well there is reason enough for you to live isn't there? There is someone out there who loves and cares for you very much, and now you have a whole forum of people who care about you too
-- posted by Angelkitty
» crzylolly - suicide
Hi,My name is Debbie, I have had many thoughts of suicide. But the only thing that stops me is thinking about my children. I know my husband wouldn't care if I died. I have talked to him and I have been to doctors. They put me on Paxil and Zanex, I don't take it because it makes me so sleepy with my meds for my epilepsy. My husband don't want to hear about my problems and I have noone else here to talk to, my family lives in another state and I wouldn't want to burden them. I sit here with my bottle of phenobarb in my pocket because last night if I had them on me I would have killed myself, well I'll keep them with me so if I deceide to kill myself I'm more prepared.
-- posted by crzylolly
» mel15 - Re: suicide
In response to message posted by crzylolly:I go through this feeling a lot i have tried to comit suicide about 8 times in the past 18 months, ive been to doctors even had a spell in the nut hosptial. Im on so many diffrent pills i dont know where i am,but i still get this feeling that i dont want to be here. The doctors keep telling me its mood swings it will pass, so why do i still feel like this. My partner tries to help but he does not know what it feels like,like you i have a great son and he keeps me going most of the time, like i keep telling myself what would he do without me.
bye for now mel
-- posted by mel15
» Helena14 - Re: Re: suicide
In response to message posted by mel15:Thought I should reply from the other side, I often get very down and think of the easy option, the way to run away and hide from the pain. The thing that stops me used to me not wanting to die a virgin..probably why i held on to it for so long..a very stupid reason but it worked. Now is the thought of my mother and sister and how it would effect their lives.. To give a very brief background my father killed himself, even ten years on from the event I can not type this without crying.It takes strength and courage to decide to live but to opt out when you have children is one of the cruelest things you could do to your child. I will always have regrets and anger and want to blame people because of what happened. Normally those around him and me, wanting to hurt someone else the way i hurt. Even though his choice was made my him, a highly intelligent and attractive man. All I can say is stick with it and goodluck.
-- posted by Helena14
» annie73 - Re: Re: Re: suicide
In response to message posted by Helena14:I just found this web site because I was looking up causes for depression in women. I saw suicide and I was interested because I have a history of trying. My pattern for depression is always over a boyfriend. I know even as I was typing it, how stupid. I forgot already the authors name I first saw here, she was explaining all the reasons not to kill yourself. When I attempted, the thing she said about who would identify your body...that alone would have prevented me. Everything else I planned for. I didn't realize at the time what a selfish act I tried to commit, at the the time I thought I was being so unselfish. Still, 11 years later I still have my moments of depression, thus looking up "depression" on the inter-net at 3 AM. I have been on and off anti-depressants. I do not have a chemical imbalance. I just value myself through my boyfriends eyes and actions (no matter who the boyfriend is) I know those is wrong, but I started exercising 2 weeks ago, this is supposed to help depression. For all of you who want to kill yourselves, what ever the reason, nothing, NOTHING is worth killing yourself over! I have been there. When I came to in ICU 3 days after taking 70 sleeping pills, I saw my Mom's face...I will NEVER put her through that again! You kill the hearts of the people who love you. Oh, no one loves you? You might be surprised. The people you really like, make an attempt to be nice to them, they may have been waiting for that. Depressed people look like snobs in other peoples eyes, they don't know what to sat to us or how to approach us. Back to me... days later I could not get a spoon from the bowl to my mouth, I thought I would permanently be like that. I felt though that I deserved that life after what I had done. I had liver and kidney damage for a while. It healed itself with the help of medicine. I had a horrible Doctor who wanted to transfer me to a place that did strip searches and shock treatments because of my insurance coverage! I got accused of manipulating my mother when I was over heard on the phone crying to her that I did not want to be transferred there. She is a nurse and knew of its reputation as well. I am sorry I went off on a tangent, but when you try to kill yourself, no one wants to talk about it later, they walk on egg shells around you. You have a new loneliness to deal with. Please, go to a doctor, if that doctor is a jerk, go to another one. With any other illness, you would get a second opinion! Please don't live for anyone else but yourself! If you are like me, it will be the hardest thing you will ever have to do in your life! It can be done!!!
-- posted by annie73
» AnnWachel - Re: Re: Re: suicide
In response to message posted by Helena14:Thank you for your insight about the cruelest thing you can do to your child. I have a 15 year old who lives with her father. I have clinical depression an am out of work right now. When I was layed off I tried to slit my wrist but it wasn't that bad. Just the other night, 6 months later I went further into the skin and tried to bleed but could not. I now have my wrist with bandaids and wrap. It's been twice now but the second time was really bad. I'm afraid for a third time. But I will always remember what you said about what your doing to your child. Thank you and God Bless You: Ann
-- posted by AnnWachel
» AnnWachel - Re: Re: A Friend
In response to message posted by Rawnerves8:Hi: I'm 50 yrs old. 10 yrs ago I developed breast cancer and had a lumpectomy and chemo and radiation. 4 yrs later it reoccurrred and I had a mastectomy and recontruction. 4 out of 9 lymph nodes were positive and they gave me 2 yrs. to live. They also diagnosed me with osteosporosis. The cancer was discovered 10 yrs. ago. Since then I have worked shift work in a plant and been layed off and had a nervous breakdown so I can relate to your tiredness. I've been diagnosed with clincical depression and am on Effexor, Provigal and Seroquel. Everyone seems to criticize me for not being more motivated. All I want now is to be left alone because no one understands me. Please know you are not alone and have probably alot more to live for than you think. God Bless - Ann
-- posted by AnnWachel
» jessycah - wow
this article is something extremely precious for it defines life,ironically enough, through a rather dark description of what (intentional) death really creates in the surroundings of the victim. it shows and evokes reflection and thought, not only about us but about the people around us. the consequences of suicide listed in the article show that there are obviously many victims(or at least more than we think there are) every time one person commits suicide.Thank you for elaborating with such intelligence on the subject. =)
-- posted by jessycah
» ready911 - Re: Re: A Friend
In response to Re: Re: A Friend posted by Angelkitty:im really depressed when i wake in the morinig iwanna die wheni look in the mirror i wanna die i just want to no a painless way to do it
-- posted by ready911
» jacksally88 - Re: Re: A Friend
In response to Re: Re: A Friend posted by ready911:Angelkitty....I feel the same way you do. I absolutley hate myself. I am not religous, so I will never talk about god. There is a virtual pain-free way to go. I have done it on accident twice, when I was an addict. It is opiates.
TO EVERYONE.....Please feel free to contact me, I have Yahoo Instant Message, under the name jacksally88, and my Email is jacksally88@yahoo.com
I used to be addicted to Heroin. I am now on a prescription of Methadone for pain, from a car accident. Sometimes I want to take the whole bottle, even half would do me in. I have previously tried to commit suicide by cutting my wrist. I did it the right way, vertically, but could not find the major vein. So now I just have a scar left. I think about suicide often, but then think of my girlfriend. It takes so much willpower to do it. I guess I don't have that much willpower yet.
Why are you depressed?
Why are you suicidal?
If you need a friend....I am here.
-- posted by jacksally88
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