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» foxydani - spirituality

I find your writing on spirituality very inspiring, I like what you said about not needing validation from any external source. I would like to know how you feel about my experience; this summer I had a dream, in it I was having a conversation with my son's deceased father, he passed in march 2003 we hadn't spoken in about 5 years and I had some unresolved issues with him that involved a lot of anger, any way I can't recall all the details of what we spoke about but I do recall two questions that I asked him; 1: did he betray me? answer was, that I already knew the answer and that it didn't matter and 2: was I doing good raising my son? he assured me that whatever happened it was going to be OK, I remember feeling like things were very different for him, he no longer seemed tormented by sadness and anger, he seemed so peaceful and calm and he gave me a sense of peace and calm, he never validated me but left me with a feeling of faith in life that no matter what our human experience is we are all going to be OK in the end, that we are spiritual beings and there is something bigger than this. I still worry about raising a healthy child(physically,emotionally,and spiritually) but I know that whatever life gives him for his human experience he will be OK too, and as long as I don't consciously cause him any emotional wounding I have done my job to the best of my ability. I just need to heal myself so I don't keep reacting to my wounds and therefore wound him unknowingly.

-- posted by foxydani