Scared to stop
- dancinQT07
- ashtray1111
- dancinQT07
- MyISIS
- gracielufreebush
- girly2
- chipper3
- snz1980
- wanttobethin
- missjrae32
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» dancinQT07 - my eating disorder
OK, it's 2004 now, and in the summer of 2003 i began my eating disorder. The thing is though i am only 14 years old. i would stop eating for the first half of my day and then have a little bite after school and wind up over-eating for the rest of the night. In spite of doing that i would do 500 to 1000 crunches, no matter how long it would take me before i went to bed. then it got worse and i would litterally live off of water...i went one whole week living of of at 16 oz water bottle...i got scared because when i would walk up stairs at my school and go to my classes i would get weak and out of breath. so i started to eat again, but everytime i eat, i would throw it back up. but i'm so pissed off because i'm manuvering around the weight of 145-153 lbs everyday. and i know that its "normal" for my height (5'6''). but i am so unhappy and i hate the way i look. i always obsess over my stomach in my mirror and sit in my room and do nothing from the time i come home from school till the next morning when i wake up. i come out of my room only to shower, use the bathroom and re-rill my water bottle. i feel so depressed and i cant tell any of my friends because they just wouldnt understand. my one friend is perfectly skinny and i told her i have a minor eating disorder and everytime that i say that i have an eating disorder she just says things to me in the tone of voice like she doesnt care. im still thick and i want to lose weight...and i eat a lot on the weekends and i puke it all up...no matter what i eat..even a grape, it has to come up. so when i start a new week, i say to myself..this is the week where i am going to lose at least 10 pounds, and all i will have is water..and im scared to be like this because i know i have a problem, i just dont want to tell anyone and i want to lose weight so badly..i need help, but the only way i can think of losing weight faster is to not eat and purge it all up.-- posted by dancinQT07
» ashtray1111 - Re: my eating disorder
In response to message posted by dancinQT07:If you feel like you are incapable of stopping, you need to seek professional help. That is my suggestion. Also, stop! You are at a good weight. I think that you need to realize why you are binging and purging. Is it because of your weight or is it because you feel like you have no control. There is nothing wrong with exercising, unless you do something called over-exercising. That is when it becomes unhealthy. If you feel like you are exercising too much, then you should stop. But if all you are doing is crunches and throwing up, that will not make you lose weight. I think you need to look into a healthier way of losing weight. Crunches won't do anything unless paired up with cardiovascular work, like running. I think you should start eating on a regular schedule and after about 1 - 2weeks begin jogging if you feel like you are out of shape or you don't like your weight. It is alot healthier, and will probably be more effective.
-- posted by ashtray1111
» dancinQT07 - thank you
thank you for your advice, it makes sense that i'm not losing weight with what i'm doing. i do know i need to stop, and i'm willing to try that, but when i wake up in the morning, i get to scared to eat a small meal before school, so i think tomorrow i might try to eat breakfast and do some other workouts. i have been over excersising..to the point where i am out of breath and im in pain, and then i would go to sleep. but i think i'm so used to not eating for the first 12-20 hrs of my day that i will continue doing that until i am comfortable with eating again. but thank you for your advice and i'll try to tone down on excersising and maybe run....thank you again for helping me, i've been wanting to talk to someone about this issue for a long time.-- posted by dancinQT07
» MyISIS - Ana/ Pro Ana
Dear Pro-Ana:We are two women (one of whom has been AnA for 30 years) who are interested in making a documentary that portrays life from the point of view of several people who are pro-ana. We believe, especially after the rise of anti-pro ana groups and negative articles in the press has led to the shut down of internet sites and exchange of information, that it is time for the ideas of those who are actively pro-ana be heard and better understood by a general public.
The combination of our credentials and personal perspectives should serve as evidence that our approach to this film would not be exploitative or sensational, but rather honest and sensitive. Its primary objective would be to give a voice to an often- misunderstood group and to raise public consciousness that Pro Ana is not only a right, but also IS a very real part of today’s socio-cultural makeup. We do not want to make a film that would in any way exploit or pass judgment on those with ed, but rather to invite the public to open their minds toward a greater understanding and tolerance of those with eating disorders.
Kate is an award-winning documentary filmmaker who is known for her in-depth and passionate portrayals of people who are traditionally scorned by society. Her film "Southern Comfort" won over 24 awards, including the Grand Jury Prize at Sundance.
Nancy has a successful career in fashion and publishing as an editor, writer, and publicist. She became anorexic when she was 10 and has battled EDs for 30 years. She feels strongly that those who are pro-ana have valid concerns that should be heard, not squelched.
RE: our credentials. As we have no people to be in the documentary yet, we have not approached a backer, however we are confident that one or two of our options will be very interested. So, while we will not be able to provide you with
Something from a film company, both Kate and I do have proof of our credentials and are more than willing to meet interested parties in a safe, public place to present them.
Re: Requirements for participation: If you have been diagnosed with “clinical” anorexia or bulimia, live in the United States and are Pro Ana.
*(if you are under 18 for any film you would have to have a parent or guardian sign a release)
If you are pro-ana or are part of a group of pro-anas with the qualifications mentioned above, and who may want to explore this idea further with us, please feel free to contact us at the addresses below. Obviously, this project would depend on a strong, trusting relationship between filmmakers and those in the film, and we would be happy to provide additional information, answer questions and brainstorm etc. either via email, in person, or over the phone.
Sincerely,
Kate and Nancy (qball@nyc.rr.com and myisis61@aol.com )
-- posted by MyISIS
» gracielufreebush - my story
i am 13 yrs old and my whole life i have been everybodies perfect little girl...im smart im pretty im popular and i best of all im skinny. but when i entered the eighth grade i broke 100lbs. for the first time and i paniced and i knew i had to do somthing to maintain my image of this little skinny girl. my paretnts dont know about this but my mom has asked about it a few times but i just lie. the only one that knows is my friend and she is tryin to help the best she can. i would like to stop before i become to addicted to it and if anyone has any advice about what i can do to stop please email me or get in touch wiht me somehow.-- posted by gracielufreebush
» girly2 - a different type
i have never really had to deal with anorexia in the way most ppl have bc all my life i have been really skinny and never had to deal with being overweight.... but lately gaining weight is coming much easier then it ever has and im really getting scared that if i start gaining weight i might turn to anorexia.... i have been sick a lot (bc of other reasons) and so a lot of the time i havent been able to eat.... and its not that hard for me not to for a while.... im just afraid of what might happen to me if my metabolism slows down... ne suggestions?-- posted by girly2
» chipper3 - Anorexia and other forms of Eating Distress
Anorexia is a form of 'Eating Distress', or , as most people call it, 'Eating Disorder'. Anorexia is an illness which compels the person to starve themselves in order to attain a feeling of control over their lives. The actual physical actions of someone with ED are only symptoms of a much greater problem. They are only manifestations of a bigger illness inside your head.People manifesting these 'symptoms' are 'super-sensitive' people: they are generally very intense people who feel things extremely deeply and struggle with coping with life because of this. They have intense feelings and thoughts and often the images they have of themselves are totally out of proportion or exaggerated and they often have extremely low self-esteem. They seek for other people's approval at every hands turn and often cannot accept themselves for who they are. No one who hasn't had an Eating Disorder themselves can ever, ever relate to someone who suffers, or has suffered, from ED. To everyone outside of that kind of experience, the logic of someone who suffers ED seems irrational, crazy, weird, 'stupid', etc., and this is why the relatives or loved-ones of Ed-sufferers often feel very frustrated and can even get angry and very upset with the sufferer. Ed-sufferers often feel enormous shame, on top of the inner turmoil they are already suffering, because of their symptoms. They are usually in a very difficult struggle to appear 'normal', which is virtually impossible, and can leave the person exhausted. For example, I had anorexia, and because I was so out of it and starved, just the prospect of even going into school and facing PEOPLE was so daunting, it in itself was exhausting enough to make me need to lie down. People with ED often become very anti-social- both because they cannot face people, and because they wish to hide their habits from people. People with Anorexia, for example, find it easier to not eat when they are on their own, because then they don't have to face the 'nagging' friends and relatives would give them if they could see that they are avoiding meals and that they are losing more and more weight. So often they build themselves a tough cocoon, because the ED is telling them to cut themselves off from other people, so that it can get a better hold of them and bring them further and further down into its clutches.
People with ED have to learn to separate themselves mentally from the illness; ie: ED is not you, it is not part of you or who you are.
People with ED often feel useless and that they are under-achievers, and during the first part of their illness they feel that their habits are a good crutch to have that helps them to cope with life, and they feel it gives them control. Very soon, though, the ED has gained control over the person, and there seems to be no turning back.
Simply; Anorexia and other eating disorders, is NOT ABOUT THE FOOD!!!! It is very important to remember that. It is simply a symptom of an under-lying problem which MUST be dealt with, otherwise the symptoms/habits can recur again and again, damaging physical health and sometimes fatally. Someone who is starving themselves is in great distress mentally, and their ED is a bit like a subconscious scream for help. (even though they try to hide their habits and are often in denial of their problem.)
IT IS NOT ABOUT FOOD
For example, I am now eating again but, though I am attending counselling and am definitely improving, I still have anorexia in my head. It is a HEAD illness.
Get help and don't talk to anyone who thinks that once your eating habits are 'normal' that you are well again- it is only the very TIP of the iceberg- 90% of it is BELOW THE SURFACE.
-- posted by chipper3
» snz1980 - Re: Re: Anorexia
In response to message posted by keewil9738:wow, I am proud of you, that is soo awesome. Keep up the good work. I am pro-ana and have had issues with food for 7 almost 8 yrs. I am 23yrs.old 5'2 and 100 lbs. mooooo. I exercise compulsively, and restrict daily. I guess they would call what I have bulima through exercise. I work off what i eat and then some. I work out 6 days a week and jog/walk 45 miles weekly. I am trying to increse. I guess since I have been doing this for a while my body is catching on and will not burn as much as I think so now I guess i have to move from aeting 500 and burning 1200. To eating 250 and burnung 1400 what do you think? Besides exercise is good for you right? Anyone alse has major issues with exercise addiction, or abuse of appettite surpressants? I do. we are all here for each other. Feel free to ask anything or tade tips. Take care
-- posted by snz1980
» wanttobethin - help me with som tips
I have been thinking for the last couple of days that i need to lose alot of weight,so last night i started with a no eating thing and then i exercised i did a little taebo until i couldn't do it anymore...i really do need to lose weight though u have any plans for me?please help-- posted by wanttobethin
» missjrae32 - my eating disorder story
gosh this stuff is hard...i have been bulimic/anorexic for about 2 years now. i go to counseling once a week but it is so hard for me...i feel like a complete failure in life....because when i eat anything i throw it up and then i feel bad but if i dont eat or dont throw up i feel bad to so its like a horrible cycle that messes you up so much. this stuff is so hard to cope with. i feel so stupid because im about 5'6 and my weight ranges from 120-130 i first started at about 150 so i have done so much work for almost nothing... i feel alone i feel like nobody understands and i feel like i will never get better....this is so hard girls help!!-- posted by missjrae32
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