A Re-Definition of Agoraphobia: Re: zorb

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I don't know... my children are everything to me and I don't want to cheat them of anything and yet the harder I try the worse I feel... I really want to see my children graduate and get married themselves... I can't stand the thought of failing them... a just get so angry and frustrated at being in this molassess stew! sorry... I didn't mean to sound like I gave up... just that I tried everything I thought I could... and I really want someone here to understand what I am going through and no one seems to have a clue...

I have always wanted to go to Chicago but just driving through it makes me cling to the roof of the car... if you can imagine a cat with full claws extended hanging from the car interior... that would be me!

You gals seem so patient with the most annoying problems a person can think of... thanks...

I don't know what I would do without my children... well besides a lot less laundry... and before I got this bad I would take my children one at a time out to the movies or something... their choice... but it got hard to sit in public so long... but I tried... I wish I got credit for trying...

I think I got the worst combination of doctors and therapists I could have possibly had... one doctor knew it was just anxiety and would let me go... knowing that was a little helpful... but it wasn't enough...

I'm not losing hope... I'm just suffocating when I want to run outside and breathe... it is very frustrating... but not even close to the fear I had last year... so I'm staying put... cant' go up the steps but I can't slide down either...

later...

-- posted by Zorb