Journal WritingWeddings, showers, picnics...and so on and so on are cramped into the next two months. My mind is screaming with all the gatherings and all the people I will have to stand beside and converse the most magical conservation's. How will I ever make it through the next two months without having a mild breakdown. There seems to be no time for me to just ponder my life and where I want it to go. Each day is booked with countless errands for the upcoming adventures that come with being in the over 30 club. Today was the day I needed to simplify the workings of mind. I could no longer stay in reality, my mind was two weeks ahead and my body was stuck in the presence. To break this nasty habit, I turned off the telephone, sat in a comfortable chair, and wrote whatever came to mind. I wrote about my shortcomings, my hidden dislike for certain people, and why I always needed to say yes. Even when I said no, I would be at home feeling sick for being unkind and ungenerous to the ones who needed my assistance. No more guilt I said, but as always, easier said than done. To my amazement, after writing about my stressful life, magically the writings on the page turned to the greatness, living in my life and solutions to some of my problems. The writing exercise lasted about 1 hour before my darling baby was staring at me wanting me to join in his games. I put the journal aside, but decided to write each morning to clear my mind.
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