I have been doing a lot of work with this chakra and I am awed by its power over me. This is the chakra where all communication occurs, where we center our expression, our personal voice, where our truth sits. I can write about my feelings, I can share my feelings in dreams with spirit teachers and totem animals, but when I try to speak my feelings, express myself vocally I get stuck. My throat physically closes blocking my words inside. I can't speak, I can't express and all I want to do is scream.
When I was little I loved to sing. I had all these little records (that dates me doesn't it?) that I would play over and over again singing along and enjoying my self thoroughly. One of my favorite things about going to church was being able to sing all those grown up songs and having my little voice apart of something bigger; a room full of people, all singing. I sang to myself at night when I got scared in the dark. It was comforting and peaceful.
I can't sing anymore, not even when I'm alone in the house with the music on loud and I'm doing the dishes. Sometime in my past a music teacher (I can't even remember which one) told me to sing a little quieter in choir. It was suggested that I shouldn't try out for a solo piece at our elementary school concert because I didn't have the voice for it. After that it was harder to sing out loud, even in a group.
Even at church with all those other voices around me I stopped singing so no one would hear my awful voice. And I even stopped singing when I was alone at night and lay awake and scared in the dark, my voice couldn't comfort me anymore.
This block that I have about singing hurts me. I want to sing, I love it, but I can't get over the fear of having someone else telling me I have an awful voice. It's a terrible block and I hate it.
The throat chakra is of course where this block rests. Other blocks occur here, all to do with speaking truth, expression and communication. The Sacral chakra is where the seed of creativity starts and the Throat is where we express that creativity. Every time we express or share something of ourselves with the world we express it from the throat.
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