I Am Only Human

Well, it finally happened, I missed a deadline, and so soon after becoming a Managing Editor that there is definitely pie on my face. I became the victim of a cookies loop - something previously unbenownst to me, the dreamer or me, the writer. You learn something new everyday.

So, for the past three days I have been having awful dreams about how bad I was looking for having missed January 5th, the first new Dreams article of the year. Again, I am faced with the knowledge that perhaps one of the most major functions of dreaming is to process day residue rather than any other higher purpose. Perhaps for me, this signals a confrontation of personal realities in the year 2001.

I am a mother of two toddler boys who is going through a divorce. My eldest son who is shy of three years old by several months still has been diagnosed with childhood nephrotic syndrome, a nasty kidney disease with a treatment of medicaitons which give him night terrors and to which he is not responding as medical professionals hope. Because of my son's extensive home cares, I am unable to work outside the home and have gone on welfare while busting my bottom to try and make my writing career go into hyperdrive. Ultimately I am a very stressed out mommy, soon to be ex-wife, writer, and artist. Ultimately I am still a dreamer and romantic idealist at heart - aren't all those with a poetic soul?

So, for 2001 I will begin with a series of articles about Lucid Dreaming, the one facet of dreams where it has been shown time and again that the dream can effect control in the mysterious realm of sleep and dreams. I am also going to do what I was doing so effectively before and make sure my articles are in well ahead of deadlines so that when life's little glitches occur this column isn't thrown off by them.

I want to thank all my readers here at the Art & Science of Dreams for their deep understanding that dreams are just one burgeoning facet of our humanity and that in the end, it is that connection which draws us together even when life puts us in a loop - with, or without the pleasure of cookies!

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