I am often asked, “Why have you chosen to write so openly on the topic of ritual abuse and mind control?” (Translation: Are you nuts? A secret worker for the cult giving out disinformation? Do you have a secret death wish if the information you share IS accurate?).
I have chosen to be vulnerable, and share from my own memories and experiences for several reasons. Not because I am inviting harm from the group I left; I want to expose them as liars. Not because I am “nuts”, but because I am healing. Not to disinform, but to help others.
I know how lonely the healing process can be. I know how often what a survivor reports to their therapist or their supporters seems unbelievable, and the survivor (and sometimes the therapist as well!) wonders, “Is what I remember really true? Can people really do this to each other?” Or the need for validation. Early in my healing, as I remembered names and dates of information that seemed incredibly cruel, I wanted to know that I was not alone. It was hard. I would ask my therapist, “Have you ever heard of this before?” and honest person that he was, he would respond, “No.” This was from someone working with a group that specialized in ritual abuse. In fact, the head of the program once took me aside, and said, “You know more than my own therapists about this (programming).” I had already figured that out.
If by sharing a little of my own healing journey, it helps others understand ritual abuse better, governmental mind control, and the process of healing, then the articles will be worth it. If it helps one survivor break through programming and heal, it is worth it.
People ask me, “Why aren’t you dead?” (ie “why hasn’t the cult come and gotten you and punished you for writing what you do?”). My answer: Because they are NOT all powerful, as they claim. They are out and out liars. Because I have safe outside accountability, and because I am in ongoing therapy with an excellent therapist.
And, because of the true source of healing, which I will share here.
One of the most difficult tasks for a survivor of severe cult abuse and mind control is overcoming a lifetime of lies. I was told when part of the group that the Illuminati would run the world. That they are on the verge of a complete takeover. That everyone was just a helpless pawn who would either help them, or be crushed.
