I sit in darkness and close my eyes,
a special mask to blind my hate,
a hated gift and a passed on trait
a dark tatoo that's on my mind,
this burning urge to be unkind.
I wrote it because I was so mad at people that would force me to stop my compulsions. Don't worry they had no luck and a couple bloody noses hehe :) It would just drive me crazy ya know, how people would say "Oh you can just stop anytime" or "Why are you doing that?"
Love,
N.
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Dear N.
What a wonderful letter! It sounds like you are really making progress in fighting back against OCD. Are you using cognitive-behavioral techniques? I would like to print your letter as an article on my Suite101 site at http://www.suite101.com/welcome.cfm/obse... Your letter is very informative and well written.
Cherry Pedrick Cherlene@aol.com
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Cherlene,
I would be honored if you would put my letter on your page and if you ever need any help with any OCD media then let me know. :) I haven't really seen my psych in a year and a half, and when we did I didn't really get any counseling to go with the meds. I pretty much had to do my homework from my psychiatrist which was for example: not using my sleeve when I opened doors (I saw that you did that stuff too!) hehe. Wasn't it hard covering it up! Man I can recall tons of times when friends or people in the hall would ask why are you tapping your feet or they would look at me funny. Thank you so much for your response, it is really comforting to know that someone else is on the other end.
Love,
N.
