Some years ago, while reading The Tenth Insight by James Redfield, http://www.celestinevision.com/main.html, I was struck by three ideas that changed my life and the way I looked at the world.
1. The dissatisfaction that I felt in my heart was, as I had suspected, caused by my lack of knowledge about my purpose here on Earth
2. Until I discovered what I was supposed to do and started following my Path, I could not be truly content with my self or happy with my world.
3. Somewhere inside the “I AM” of my being, I knew what my purpose was and exactly what I was supposed to do to fulfill it.
I was able to realize that the unhappiness I felt wasn’t caused by the circumstances of my life. It was the other way around. My frustration and anger over feeling lost were making me discontented with everything. I was causing my own unhappiness. I always knew that I was here to do something important, but was surrounded by people who believed that we were all here “because God put you here”. I was taught that none of us really had a clear purpose here on Earth. Those who insisted they were here for some important Spiritual work were outcast as nuts, fanatics or worse. So, of course, wanting to fit in and be accepted by those around me, I ignored the constant insistence of my Soul that I was missing something. I continued to live in hell because I refused to see the Truth of my Being.
I started to understand that I could not move out from hell, and into heaven, until I got past the need to be like those around me and found the courage to allow the Spirit within me (or the“I AM”) to grow and flourish as I should. I had been struggling with this concept for years, although I hadn’t consciously known it at the time. (hindsight is always 20/20)
So, there I was with the knowledge that I had spent the last 23 years creating my own unhappiness because I wasn’t doing what I came to this place to do, but I had no idea how to release the information I needed in order to walk the Path I was intended to walk.
Around this time, I started attending church again, and started using the gifts that Spirit gave me. I stumbled across several books by Deepak Chopra, http://www.chopra.com/. Basically, I read everything I could get my hands on, looking for some sort of answer. I started studying Metaphysics and realized that I knew most of this stuff all along. I just never had a name for it. This reinforced the idea that I must know my purpose here on earth. I started paying attention to the signs around me, looking for guidance both within and without. I noticed several things.
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