A Great Loss

I didn't know how hard it would be living without him. We had been married for 7 years. I miss his humor, I miss his anger, I miss his physical presence, I miss his kindness, I miss his chivalry, I miss his acceptance of me, and most of all I miss his love.

My husband was proud of me, in the fact that I took adversity and tried to help people by writing here at Suite101 and my Dialysis Open House website. He thought I was a very strong person.

This devastation I have lived through has almost made me stop writing here at Suite101. I do not feel strong. I do not feel proud.

I realize it is important to continue writing my articles in the hopes of possible making someone more informed, making someone feel more at ease, or just allowing people to know they are not alone when facing kidney failure.