Several books were instrumental in helping me to heal. During the early 1990's, my inquisitive mind began to make healthy decisions more often than unhealthy ones. By the way, that was the first level of my recovery that took me away from staying sick all the time - that level was called "seeking answers to why I am unhealthy and seem to stay that way." I was 'sick and tired of being sick and tired.' Rather than continuing to complain for the last fifty years of my life about my illnesses, I decided to do the opposite in order to reverse the wheels of my life to turn toward a well direction.
One of the books that I read was by Truddi Chase. Truddi wrote "When Rabbit Howls," and it later became a New York Times #1 Bestseller. This book, written in order for Truddi to share with the world a description of her ninety-two voices that lived within her, describes her defense mechanisms. Her defense Trojans were designed to help her to deal with her childhood. My Trojans totaled thirteen in number and what I know today helped me to understand that if I had not built the Trojans, I might have died. Truddi, after healing, became a therapist using her life and its trials to help others to heal from similar problems. RoseMeade's Wellness Nook allows me to do the same but without my being a therapist. I am instead a recovering person sharing recovery skills learned along my path. Below is an exercise shared to help others to heal from having dysfunctional defense mechanisms that have continued for a long time. Some of these defense mechanisms show up in Bi-Polar Disorders and in people with Multi-personality Disorders.
'Sybil,' a book written by Flora R. Schreiber, is presented in a shocking, startling, and powerful way. Sybil tells a story about a women who suffered from mysterious blackouts in order to survive her terrible childhood abuse. 'When Rabbit Howls' is a book that, like Sybil, also is written ver graphically. Some readers feel it is a hard task to finish reading these book because of their inability to believe people actually experience multi-personality disorders. I, on the other hand, felt right at home reading both of these books because they seem to be talking about me and to me. I was comfortable reading the facts presented in all three; but you see, they were similar to the facts of my childhood. By reading these books, I was able to not stay hidden within my thoughts. I began to see that I was not the only person who had the problems of this nature. My healing process began because of my ability to put even more words and understandings to the horrors going on inside of me. If you know of someone who suffers from a Multi-personality Disorder or a Bi-Polar Disorder, please encourage them to find these books or others like them. Take the time today to encourage the healing process of being able to look at problems as not being secrets to hide.
