Wow.
Yeah, the family was completely overwhelmed because I had always been involved in this, but I had always had aspirations of majoring in international business, I had all these scholarships. I had a definite plan that had been set for a while. But once you find something you love it completely changes your perspective. It did that in a heartbeat for me, knowing that if something I loved doing that much could actually have a physical payday - it was an interesting thing.
I mean I was completely naïve. I had absolutely no idea what I was getting into. I pretty much expected that the day I turned eighteen I'd walk into an office and they'd say, "Oh there you are. We've been looking for you." Then I'd have a job. [Laughs]
The reality of the situation sank in pretty quickly I imagine.
Oh absolutely. Just the reality of - just the reality, actually. Knowing that there's fifty thousand girls like me -- that could be put in the exact same category - that arrive every six months. Just the overwhelming fact of how hard it is. Even now it scares me, if I actually sit down and think of the odds of my being able to do sustain a career for a lifetime - it's terrifying. But I have enough belief - enough confidence, for whatever reason, that I keep going.
I love it. It would be different if the journey was ugly, but it's not. It's so amazing, and every little experience. There are things about L.A. that aren't that interesting, but even living here is just full of magical things because the city offers so much.
It sounds like you're not regretting anything at all about it.
In a sense I wish I could have been better prepared, or had a bit more of a clue. But the truth is if I had really known what to expect I would have been too scared to even try. You're right, I don't regret it. I'm so eager that I want everything sooner than it comes. I'm an absolute believer in what's meant to be will be. Every job I have I'm meant to have for whatever experience it gives me. We'll see - that's the exciting part, thinking, "My gosh, what could be next week or next year."
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