Epilepsy From a Six Dimensional Point of View: Part II

I'll use my personal life experience as an example. The following pertains to Paulette Motzko, the author, and her six dimensional view of a thing called her seizure.

#1 Describing "seizure" as a color, shape and size etc.-Paulette's seizure is black because it is devoid of life and after her postictal period, it involves some degree of depression. As for shape, it is dagger shaped because her aura and seizure experience are fear and anxiety based. When seizure-prone this often makes her feel like a transient, elusive predator is stalking to attack with a weapon, hence the dagger.

#2 Describing its size-It is variable. It can morph from enormous with status simple partial seizures, forcing the very occasional use of a wheelchair for safety's sake. Its size can be average with complex partial unconsciousness, resultant temporary memory loss, and disturbed peace of mind. It can also be miniscule and almost microscopic when the 2503 milligrams work. Absence of seizure activity equals the confidence to accomplish nearly anything, even without a car. Yes, the sun shines brighter for her on those days.

#3 Compare it: Paulette's natural gut instinct is to compare it with hell itself because the before, during and after stages of the seizure involve almost super-human qualities of endurance. She also compares it to a diabolical monster, the same as many of The Epilepsy Connection's clients compare theirs to. It feels she's being pounced on by an invisible attacker.

#4 Associate it: Paulette's seizure makes her think of the opposite of mercy, which would be malice. She wishes she didn't think of this association. Logically she knows that with the pain that her seizures add to her life she was endowed with many abilities and talents that overcompensate for the inadequacies.

#5 Analyze it: If she were to describe how her seizure was "made" in her particular case, she would firstly use a test tube as the receptacle. In it would be mixed a high fever, convulsions, a coma, and a resultant small scar on the right side of her brain. This unctuous mix would become a homogenous mix called mesial temporal sclerosis.

#5 Apply it: If Paulette asked herself "what could I do with my seizure", she'd have to answer on first breath-nothing. Of course nothing as it serves no purpose, right? On closer introspection she'd use the fact that she's an intractable, tough case as the basis of a common thread that binds her with people with seizures worldwide. Working to change the quality life of those who have a forgotten disorder, she is using The Epilepsy Connection as the conduit.

Go To Page: 1 2 3