Today, as a society, we are on the run more and more often. We seem to be running from one place to get to the other, only to turn around and hurry back. What are we running too, or from?
Who is controlling your life and why? Well, as a pretty stubborn woman, with a most definite mind of my own, I always thought I was controlling my own life. I was wrong.
I have stopped over the past several months to really look at my life, my habits, my dreams, and my day to day existence. It didn’t take me long to figure out that I let my work control me first, and my food habits second.
I exist to work, for my kids, for my freedom, for my independence, for my mortgage, for my peace of mind, and so my children can eat.
I exist to eat for my sanity, my compulsion, my peace of mind, and my overall sense of well being.
Now. There is something wrong with this picture.
I am a reasonably intelligent woman, and should not be “trapped” in any job. Yet, I’m afraid to make a move, because what if...? What if I can’t find another job? What if I’m not as good at my job as I think I am? What if I quit and my husband expects me to be the perfect housewife? (Not in this lifetime)
I am, at times, desperately unhappy, bored, and tired of my current job, yet, the security of it lulls me into a routine of unhappiness and stress. I could do so much more...or could I?
Maybe I should just be happy where I am, and not look for the perfect life, the silver lining behind the cloud. Maybe it doesn’t exist, and all of my unhappiness comes from the never ending search, and not the lack of perfection in my life.
No one’s life is perfect. No one lives a fairy tale existence. Every one hates their jobs and no one is happy in their life.
Ok. Let’s back up. Do I really believe that? Do you?
There are people in this world who get up and go to work with a smile on their face and a song on their lips. There are people who enjoy their lives, and their work, equally.
There are people who do not believe they are undeserving or unworthy.
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