Falling into a Black hole; energing victorious via a white dwarf

Last month , I informed you that I would be writing an article on some aspect of Mental Health . Before getting into the body of this article, I would like to ask the readers if they have ever heard the following concerning mental health? Have you ever heard people say this about someone who has experienced a mental breakdown? They're just too emotional or it must be in their genes. I can assure that both ideas are false because I experienced a breakdown in 1980 and it wasn't because I was too emotional or that my genes were defective. It happened because I had placed my brain under undue stress for over 25 years and something happened which my brain couldn't deal with. A cousin of mine who was barely 16 tried to commit suicide and happened to call my mother asking for help.

In good motherly fashion, my mother proceeded to give advice which I knew was not appropriate. I therefore got into my car and drove over to her house and found that she had tried to commit suicide. No emotions on my part, and certainly no defective genes. I arrived only to find that she was being rushed to the hospital for a medication overdose. I was left at her home with her two younger siblings.

Knowing that something needed to be done I began calling people and telling them to meet her mother, my first cousin, at certain hospital. To this point I experienced no problem; in fact you might say that I was the Rock of Gibraltar. The next morning all this changed and the Rock cracked. He cracked when he received a call from a Church member congratulated him on getting people to the hospital for support during this moment of crisis. At this point every nerve in my body went berserk and I began to hallucinate. I hallucinated being in a padded room strapped in a straight jacket and screaming.

Thus began my odyssey of recovering from a breakdown.

I call this odyssey, Falling into a black hole and scratching your way to the top through a white dwarf. That's what it feels like to experience a breakdown. When it happens you feel that all of your strength is being pulled from you by some mysterious force which you know you have to fight if you are going to come out in relatively good mental health. Some how I instinctually knew that I would have to summon all my remaining strength if I were to escape being sucked into a gigantic void out of which there appeared to be no escape. This is

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