A Night In The Mind Of An Insomniac

One of the side effects of many antidepressants is insomnia. What do you do with that time when the rest of the world is sleeping? Here is what I sometimes do:

A NIGHT IN THE MIND OF AN INSOMNIAC:

In the darkest time of night
demons stirring in my head
stirring up my thoughts
making memories overcome me.

I beg and plead for sleep
but the thoughts keep racing
do I dare to live
do I hope to die?

Sleep finally takes me over
I dream of oceans
strong breezes and waves
crashing over my head.

Colors, flashing, colliding
I'm dizzy, I'm lost again
I'm confused
Where have the demons taken me now?

Then a thunderous crash of lightning
there is pain, intense pain
the day light shines through the blinds
here I go again

NIGHT FALLS FAST:

The darkness looms,
and night falls fast,
the elite are those,
who sleep at last.

The Land Of Nod,
stays at arms length,
the lack of slumber,
zaps all strength.

Shadows stretch,
across the walls,
of dimly lit rooms,
where darkness stalls.

The light of day,
looms in the morrow,
eons away,
from nights great sorrow.

Lurking in corners,
in the darkest of night,
are unwanted visitors,
we have brushed out of sight.

There comes a time,
to my surprise,
that even insomniacs,
close their eyes.


BURIED ABOVE GROUND:

Buried above the ground
always walking on the edge
I'm stuck in a body
I cannot get out
I'm not even sure I'm not dead.

Where is the person I wanted to be?
A person who can feel
This body is cold
this body is numb
and this heart is harder than steel.

In the darkest of night
while the rest of you sleep
that's when I can feel the pain
of black and blue memories from my past.

I'm back home with 'daddy' again.
Those demons won't leave me
they prey on my pain
I've tried to defeat them
but I cannot win
guess I'll stay buried above the ground again.


(c) Dena Lambert 2000-2001

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