Final Conclusion of Research a personal account part 1 of 3

"Things are o.k. here, just trying to figure a way to retire, ha ha."-Mark

    I'm glad to hear things are doing ok with you.  My attitude has changed dramatically although I'm still pretty scared of what the future may, or may not hold for me.  I went to see the Dr.,  and If I remember correctly I told you all about it.  I'm not sure, but I'll tell you again.  I saw the Dr on Wednesday August 16th.  Before attending my appointments I record any changes in attitude, physical well being etc.  I went in to see him, and he basically acted like he had some place else he'd rather be.  He constantly kept interrupting me.  It got to the point where I asked him if he even wanted to hear how I was doing, and If I should continue speaking.  The appointment did not go well, and It ended with him telling me that I should see a psychiatrist, because my "grieving" attitude, and depression are separate issues unrelated to being chronically ill.   I told him he's wrong, and that I "will" find a cure, and I walked out.  Since that day I have felt unbelievably great mentally.  Being told "It's all in your head", and hearing it"again" just reinforced my will to find a solution. 

    I'm sure he "tried" to make me feel better after having said that, because then he said "you definitely have Crohn's Disease", which is common sense, but his condescending approach in saying it's "abnormal" to be depressed or to grieve over the loss of a life I might never have/want angered me.   I realized I would have to take responsibility in finding a solution myself.  The way I look at it is if everyone just "accepts" that there is no cure, then no one will bother looking, so I did just that.

    I've spent everyday from August 16th until now, even now while writing you; doing research, calling Dr.'s, writing e-mails.  I've contacted over 400 people around the world. Pathologists, Immunologists, Gasterenterologists, Microbiologists, etc.   I have contacted research scientists & medical physicians.  I've casted a wide net to include anyone who has an interest in finding a cure, and I've received numerous replies.  I figure that in reaching out to 400 people I'm bound to get at least 20 replies back, and out of those 20 replies I'm bound to have one who is willing to assist

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