Have you ever thought of what you would be like without the ADHD? As most ADDers, my mind wanders in the most peculiar places sometimes and I was thinking about what life would be like if I didn't have ADD.
I was sitting in church - yes, I know I should have been listening-and tapping my foot to release some of that pent up energy since it's frowned upon for adults to fidget too obviously in that setting. I was wondering what it would be like if I didn't have to tap my foot and I could actually concentrate only on the sermon and not on all of the other things around me. I wondered what it would be like not to notice the fly in the window or the preacher's tie being askew. And to not wonder what others were thinking or saying when they whispered to the person next to them. You see, in church, my mind wanders quite a bit. Like I said, I can't fidget much - it's a bad example for my fidgety children, so my mind tends to take off. Try as I might to reel it back in, it tends to frequently go its own way. (By the way, when I remember to do it, taking notes on the sermon helps to keep me on track. I guess it give my hands and mind something to do.)
Anyway, I was thinking about what it would be like not to do all these things that are so natural to me and so seemingly foreign to others. You know what I think? I think the rest of the world can be pretty boring! With all the heartaches and disappointments that come along with ADHD, come great joy and creativity. I ask my husband (very non-ADHD) if he ever makes up conversations in his head about what he thinks others are saying...he tells me no. I ask him if he notices certain sites, smells, and things around him - many times he tells me no. How can you go through life without imagination, I wonder? My imagination tends to go off on strange tangents sometimes. I realize this, but to not imagine at all? Or at least not very often?
What would life be like if you didn't let your distraction help you investigate the world around you? I tend to wander off, much to the annoyance of those around me, by the way. I see something in a store that catches my attention or a flower or something catches my eye outside, and off I go. I don't do it to be annoying of course, but I do it because I want to learn more or see more of the detail of the world around me. As a result of my wanderings, I see more, learn more, understand more, I think.
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